SITTING IN THE DARK

There are times when I’m inconsolable

When the world around me becomes too much

And my demons come out to feast on me again.

There are times when I’m hopeless

When I’m too lost to return home

And I don’t need your comforting touch

I just need to be left alone to sit quietly in the dark.

Don’t offer me a friendly hand,

nor a tender embrace of love,

Just let me surround myself with shadows

And let my troubles eat me whole.

Don’t try to save me when I can’t be saved

And keep your tender words for another day,

A day when the tides of my heart have changed

and my soul flows the other way.

But until that time remember that I love you,

And that you’re still the keeper of my heart.

But for the moment love is not my friend,

and your tender touch and sweetest smile

are like poison to my aching soul.

So let me be...

Let me sit alone in the dark,

Let me find comfort in forgotten lusts.

Let me bandage my heart with solitude

And dry my tears with time.

I know that you understand

And I pray that you’ll return

Because I long for when I can emerge from these shadows

And once again cherish the smile glistening

Across your sweet, tender face.